it's really just like anything else in life. it's extremely easy to prove either decision 'right', and extremely difficult to cross either out as 'wrong'. everything is good, it's great to get rich, it's great not to. it's wonderful to live with your family, it's awesome to live on your own. it's best when you get high and drunk every weeknight, it's really pleasant to stay in and relax with some wine and good music. it's really great to be here, it's wonderful to be back there.

i think the reason is that there's no point, period. there's no point to anything, to moving back, to staying here, to life. it will pass eitherway. life is joyous in the moment, and totally sucks beyond that. everyone's great in the moment, and everyone's fucked up beyond that. this moment is the only glimpse of happiness we get, and it's pure misery beyond that.