i took out my visa and said we should hold on to the new dollar for its charm, she handed it to the indian cashier guy and ignored me. i looked at the ticket and chuckled, she asked me if its my first time. she said her grandpa started it, she said we should never lose hope, i think there is no hope, but i don't think there's anything wrong with holding on to things that don't exist.

i hold on to my past, my home, my family. she's holding on to a&a who just moved back east. and now we're both holding on to a mega million ticket - not a super lotto one, because "remember super lotto is on wednesdays and saturdays". it's my first one, and it's all good.